All or Nothing Part 1

All or nothing thinking, Black and White?
What does that even mean? I guess that I can't even comprehend something different because this is how I think, I am full of extremes in my thinking and it seems like it's all I am capable of. I don't think my thinking is extreme or limited. But it seems like people don't like the idea of black and white thinking, as if it takes something away from them. 

This is that situations are actually a spectrum of possibilities, seems like a lie, doesn't seem like it's even possible to me. People see it in me, but I don't think I am black and white, if I was would I even be as reflective as I am. And would the faith exist in my body and my underlying understanding that ultimately everything is working out in my favour? Or is that also black and white that ultimately things will work out for me? Isn't that just faith, or is that binary. I mean it has to, right? And it has to work out in not just this life, but in the ultimate infinite that is all lives between all beings in all realms of the universe. Maybe by making it so large that my mind can't actually comprehend it means that it protects me from the sadness of the process. Although everything almost always does end up the way that I envision it, it just takes time. Look at me being all growth mindset. But it doesn’t sustain, its not that it's not possible to have these feelings of ultimately working out, but its like there are these big holes in the ground on the path that I fall into, the holes that say nothing is working out. An example would be me trying to get a job, any job really just something that paid some semblance of money compared to what I was making. But the whole process took a year, a year of application interviews and trying to operate outside my zone of reality to answer the mind numbing questions that are required for jobs. But there are so many times when it's just rejection, rejection and more rejection and once you are about 50 rejections deep is it not reality to say this is not working out? Is it delusional to say ‘this is working out in my favour’ when all the evidence suggests that it's not? Which one is more fantastical, but then I get slapped with this “negative’ and ‘all or nothing” if anything the relentless amount of rejections indicate that I need to maybe change my approach rather than think its all a work in progress.