Covid Again
omg its Covid again! I know that for a lot of people Covid is just a mild cold, with normal cold-like symptoms, like a sore throat, a runny nose, maybe a fever? But for me it's more, more than just a cold of any degree. It starts with the most painful sore throat I have ever experienced, it's on par and maybe worse than tonsillitis, eventually my nose drips, no not drips it actually runs similar to a tap thats been left on. It's not your regular stuffy, runny nose that you wipe and blow with your tissues, instead it's quite literally flows to non stop. I have to say I find that the most uncomfortable of my early symptoms. Comparing the nose to the sore throat, I'd rather have unbearable throat pain than the faucet nose. Its followed by some insane amount of sneezing, 5, 6, 7 sneezes in a row, several times per minute, which goes on for a bout a day. And lastly of the temporary symptoms is the stomach pain, I don't know what covid does to my intestines, but its awful, and that enough of those details.
All those symptoms are temporary, its what comes after thats the challenge. It causes inflammation in my lungs, and I can't breathe. I now have asthma, which I had never had in my life, I have always thought I have pretty powerful lungs, I had never experienced being out of breath, but after covid running 10 meters and im gasping for air. But it's just a cold right? They have steroids for that right? Right i am back on permanent medicine, JUST an inhaler. But what are these other symptoms that happen with the covid? The joint pain is the first one, I don't even know if its joints, sometimes it feels like everything is hurting. Sitting in one way for too long causes pain on the joints while lying on my side at night makes me wake up because of the pain in my shoulder. But it's just a cold right?
The “brain fog” is an interesting experience, in which you can read a sentence, read a sentence, and read a sentence and have no idea what you are reading. Its like the brain doesn't fire its neurons or something, I'm no biologists so I dont know the exact working of what makes brain fog a thing. It makes tasks as simple as writing a 2 sentence email take 40 mins or more, I wasn't great at emails beforehand so I guess this added time might be less for other people. But its just a cold… right?
And the last one is the fatigue, not the normal kind when you take a nap and then spring back to life. This fatigue is like I went to the supermarket and now I can’t get off the couch, have no energy and all my joints are on fire. Its just a cold tho? Why is this all coming up now tho? I guess thats because I have Covid again, and I'm scared, scared that the long covid flare up will happen again. I just don't have time for wasting my day sitting around with some illness that no one even believes in. That's not true, the people who have long covid believe in long covid as a real physical experience. And having said that, there are people who have covid who have an array of complications, like needing ventilators, near death experiences, tremors, hair loss, and so many other symptoms. So ultimately I am thankful that it's not as severe as it could be, but I am sad about having to deal with it at all, and overall a bit scared that the flare up might happen. But its just a cold right?
